I decided to take a break for writing after my 12 days posts to relax and refresh myself before getting back into things (definitely not because I had no ideas or anything). I wasn’t planning on putting out anything soon, but today I felt that I needed to write.
I was piled up with work all day today – work that threatened to push into overtime (and eventually did). In the middle of this hectic time, I decided to take a twitter break and noticed that Haruhi had put out another post, so I decided to check it out.
…That break turned out to last a lot longer than I intended.
Nowadays, it takes a lot for anything to get an emotional response out of me but Haruhi’s post really got me. I’ve been trying to sort out all the things I wanted to say and Twitter is a notoriously bad medium for getting your thoughts out without spamming your followers to high heaven.
So here’s a letter to Haruhi.
Friendly reminder that your work is friggin’ amazing. It takes a lot to write something so personal and about a topic so controversial all in one piece. Even I felt anxious just reading your post. The potential for toxicity on the internet is something that anyone that been on here long enough will know. But most people are never on the receiving end, myself included. Starting this blog for me, meant accepting the possibility of this kind of abuse. And I was more than happy to have zero readers over having one toxic commenter.
In that sense, it’s pretty difficult for me to even imagine going out and making myself vulnerable to this kind of hate – even for a just cause. And this kind of cowardly thinking is definitely not going to help anyone. I read frog-kun’s post on his experience and friendship with Amelia and I remember wondering to myself what I would do in that situation. I eventually decided that I agreed with frog-kun’s decision, something that you may or may not agree with.
My thoughts are starting to mangle so I’ll leave with this: You have a kind of courage and articulation that I could never hope to replicate – and I admire that a lot. I’m glad to see that things are going well with Amelia and that you’re writing and happy because of that. The naïve optimist in me can’t see anyone ragging on you for your post so I’ll tentatively say that you don’t have worry about it.
I suck at trying to convey my thought through writing (thus the blog!) so if I said anything stupid, I apologize.
I hope to see more of your work.
Thanks for everything,